MINUTES BEFORE OSCE & THE REAL DEAL

"Pachi, aku kan membalut tangan kita ni Pachi ah.."I wasnt taking advantage arah lanjiku tu on the above picture, I was reciting *chyee* the manuals for passing the stump bandaging procedure. I keep on doing it again & again (eik? 2PM? hahaa) so that I wud keep those scenes in my head and redo it exactly what I rehearse bebalik on the actual OSCE nanti.

they didnt seem to be panicking.. or probably they hide their 'fear & anxiety' well.. harharrr.. damn, I almost puke 4 times! swear!! I cant stop it.

PRE-OSCE (QUARANTINE) ROOMagain, practising the bandage lagi..

the room was so bising and riuh with people ckp 'Pachi.. Machi.. aku kan... blablablabla kita ah.." so bising brabis semua urg try to get last minute memasukkan plajaran dlm utak. oh my.. their effort I wish kami semua pass sgt2.. weve tried our best udah yawh..

I think c pou were trying to perform the-putting-on-'imaginary'-sterile-drapes...

exhausted.. the long-waiting makes me nausea and sleepy.. The last three OSCE, i always finish around 10 am but this semester I was given the 3rd-last rotation which makes me balik aher around 2+pm. I was extremely pissed off when I heard that I got the rotation aher. The waiting was torturing, you could even feel the nervousness-aura emits form my body, aku balik2 tejeluak then airmata keeps on running down, really seksa to the max. damn, how I wish to quit nursing at that moment and just kawen.. hahahaaaaa.. well, I cant. =')

oah.. Im in despair..

After the OSCE, i feel so farkin relieved that I sang a song all the way to hostel. The song? my own creation and I dint copy the music or verse from other song. wanna hear? "My OSCE is done~ Im so freaking farkin damn hapeeee~ I can Qada my sleep now~ I can joli now~ I dont care If i fail my osce anymore~ Im tired of OSCEing~ I hate OSCE~ lalalalalalaaaaa~" Sing along people!! sing with me!! XD Actually, I am tired of all this learning stuffs, but I now I need to carry on. I can't stop now, I can't quit and I must not lose to my conscience. I fight the urge to quit and keep on running forward. plus, If I fail, please dont make it big.. Failure its just another experience, another learning (pengajaran). never make failure as something that stop you from getting whachu want.. *angguk2 mcm professor* hahahaaaaa.. peace people, osce abis, joli yawh.

Oah.. Im so hapee...

palaotak la kan joli. next week, legal ethics due submission then next week lagi, mid-test menjelma.. wehiheee.. nahasss la kan joli!